Back to zero

I started out this new year in excellent fashion, I managed to break my streak on my meditation app. I woke up one morning to see the number ’80’ replaced with a ‘0’. First day - resolution failed.

Yep, this is a resolution post.

I was damn proud of meditating for 80 days, I always made room for it and it became second nature and then one day I just forgot.

I felt genuinely sad and disappointed in myself. I don’t think that’s the aim of the app.

This feeling sucked and really make me not care about getting back and surpassing 80 days, its so far away! This mentality is I’m guessing the same as going to the gym, eating healthily, all the classing resolutions. As soon as you slip, its a long slide all the way down and a longer climb back up.

To contrast this I recently deleted all my Tweets, I’ll wait for the applause break, and realised a few things in doing this.

  • My tweets meant nothing to me

  • I felt so much better after deleting them

If I cant remember what I tweeted a week ago, what is the point in it floating around the internet? In a positively Marie Kondo moment I decided and immediately did something I thought I wouldn’t do - I deleted it all and started over. It felt great, I’ll even do as far to say it was joyful.

I feel free to tweet - or not tweet - whenever I want now, I have more fun with it and I feel more in control. I’m considering doing the same thing with my Instagram, however I feel more attached to what I see than what I say. Maybe that’s all the more reason to do it.

In these two instances I lost or let go of a lot of things and the most peculiar thing happened.

Nothing.

Nothing happened.

In times like this the only thing you can do is keep going.

I know thats a phrase you’ll hear often, even more often is ‘its not how many times you fall, its how many times you get up’ what I would like to add is this: If theres a bit of time between falling and getting up that is totally fine, be kind to yourself and know your limits, they are nobody’s but your own.

This post may or may not have been a trick to post this video of a small bear climbing up a hill.

Happy New Year, yes it’s the 16th January

Harry